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The Open Door

Posted on Jan 19th, 2009 by Photizo : A Livingstone Photizo



The Open Door

Amy Lee - Evanescence

Sometime life seems like the movie the Matrix and we're all looking for the Key Master to open the right doors to the architect of our own design to find joy and happiness. Or as Neo is asked, "what is it that you want?" To which he simply says.... "Peace"."

But like in the movie, our time here is about choice,  the free will to open or close any door we choose knowing the conseqeunces of those actions. And that's where the challenge comes when our choices are clouded or fueled by emotions that drive us here and there. It's so easy so just say be the witness to your emotions  and realize them as objective realities. Yes we all live in the three states of consciousness of waking - Dreaming - Sleeping or what correspond to the three great realms of gross - subtle and causal, so that we all see the world in a different way depending on what state we are in at the time. But there are some emotions that are very difficult to dismiss. The two by which we are cyberneticaly wired.... Love and Hate or the Pleasure -Pain principle that finds itself lived out in our daily life of relationships.


Man is a knot into which relationships are tied.

Antoine de Saint-Exupéry,

Emotions are the subjective experiences from our own personal point of view that move us. In fact, the English word 'emotion' is derived from the French word émouvoir. This is based on the Latin emovere, where e- (variant of ex-) means 'out' and movere means 'move',' or the related "motivation."

Emotions move us, drive us and we even make lists of good ones and bad ones. Yet when it comes to the heart our emotions define us and  since we spend most of our conscious time in the waking state or sensorimotor world of people, places and things, we tend to just say that everything is Fine Again And we aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day.

Seether - "Fine Again" Official Video


Now I chose Seether's Video for a reason as I believe it's in relationships that we find our meaning, our joy and happiness, and also our sorrow , pain and loss. And beacuse I am a fan of Seether and Amy Lee, I  thought I would use their videos which are a public display of their own relationship, emotions and the choices they each made through the use of music videos.

Amy Lee and Shaun Morgan were together for about two or so years and you may remember that both of them sang together in Seether's Broken Video which is about a relationship.


Shaun said he wrote this about his emotions towards a girlfriend with the first line
"I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh..."  and It was a way of telling her he wanted her: "Cause I am broken when I am lonesome and I don't feel right when you're gone away"

Amy Lee,Seether-Broken


Shaun is a hugh fan of  Kurt Cobain and was heavily influenced by him and Morgan's interpretation of Nirvana's music is just a vehicle for emotional catharsis. So with the loss of his brother In August 2007, It was reported by the Rapid City Journal that Eugene "Genie" Welgemoed jumped to his death shortly after midnight Monday August 13, 2007 from an eighth-floor window of the Radisson Hotel in Rapid City, SD. According to police, no foul play is suspected in the death. It was ruled a suicide after an investigation which isndpired this video, the first release off their new album

FINDING BEAUTY IN NEGATIVE SPACES.

Seether - "Rise Above This" (Official Video)


 So having lost his brother, and losing his guitarist in the previous year he also did a stint in rehab. So you might understand the meaning of the new album title, but the story gets better. You see, Amy Lee of Evanescence decides to release the Album the Open Door that lays out the two's relationship and strikes a blow at Shaun subjecting him to the humiliation of Amy Lee, pretty much writing an entire album about him.

The song, Call Me When Your Sober sets the stage with Amy as Little Red riding Hood who pets the wolf, (Remember this metaphor as Shaun uses it in response in a future video)


Call Me When Your Sober
Amy Lee as Little Red Riding Hood

This video switches it so that the wolves allow their ears to be petted and shows how Red Riding Hood turns the tables (or at least walks down table) with a second wolf who is being evicted (arguably).

It focusses upon the (at the time) recent break up of Lee’s relationship with Shaun Morgan  and instead of taking the issues from the relationships, she turns it around and deals with the wolves on her own.  So we have the tale of Red Riding Hood taking on the wolf and about a young woman taking control of her own situation. So to watch the video knowing all this background just makes it that much more interesting and the looks she gives when she says you only call me when your sober with her head tilt and look at 2:31 into the vid and her last look into the camera when she says I've made up your mind and laughs are priceless. Take a look.

Evanescence - "Call Me When You're Sober" Official Video


So not to be out done in the public eyes, Shaun's emotions are relased through his own video in response to Amy's. Shaun is quoted as saying, "

"The song is about not allowing yourself to be beaten down by what people say about you and kind of believing in yourself, and ultimately knowing that you'll be better for it"

I think it speaks for itself, and look out for the wolf and the chorus:

So break me down if it makes you feel right
And hate me now if it keeps you alright
You can break me down if it takes all your might
'Cause I'm so much more than meets the eye


Seether - "Breakdown" (Official Video)


But as yet the story does not yet end, for the 13th and last cut on the Open Door Album is Amy Lee's song about her new boyfriend, Josh. In "The Open Door" cd in the "thanks section". There's a part there that says

"Josh, you are my muse. Nothing inspires me the way you do. Thank you for all my missing pieces. Thank you for your strength and love. Thank you for letting me see myself through your eyes, because only then could I know that I am good enough for you".

 Basically, Amy is saying that she let him flirt with her for a while and then she started to ("shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly, now I can't let go of this dream") and now she feels like she's good enough for someone again.



Josh and Amy Collage

Note in the beginning how she metaphorically
 burries a picture in the ground like a seed.

Evanescence - "Good Enough" Official Video


So how do you deal with all these emotions we feel daily, some so powerful such as love and loss that it remains a daily burden?

First.......

Take reponsibility for your emotions - If you think someone else is causing your emotional issues, then you may be waiting a lifetime for them to change... see it for what it really is and deal with it.

Witness the Emotions in your body
- A good key here is if you  feel your spirit being pulled away from from you then you are not in control of it.

Define the emotion. Is it fear, love anger?

Next, express the emotion, write it down, tell it to someone, but find a way to release it. Not all of us have access to high end video production or the talent of the two artists above, but they are definitley releasing their emotions through the medium of music videos. Then once it's released, burn it. Just as in the final video "Good Enough" that then allows for a new beginning as the flowers begin to bloom amid the burning wreckage of her past.

Then celebrate that closure and let it go...let it go.......

DEO



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jenni : hello
about 13 hours later
jenni said

I have to go back and listen to all of the music. but I agree that is really hard to move past the pain of loss of love. The pain is all consuming and relentless. I am not sure it ever completely goes away. but your advice at the end makes sense. Just have to keep reminding oneself. Especially the taking responsibility  and witnessing the emotion. I liked those two. That second one, when you feel your spirit being pulled away. I will have to write that down. thank you.
that is great quote about the knot.

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