Crashed - Rebuilding A New Beginning

It’s been sometime since I’ve been on Zaadz with my last blog on the Idiocracy of America. Unlike my last hiatus which was the result of a personal time out for summer fun with my son, this one was the result of a fried motherboard on my computer.
And like many of you, your computer can be an extension of yourself reaching out into the noospheric regions of Content vs. Form or in the Medium which is the Message.
Not many years ago, 1954 to be exact, the personal computer was just a fantasy. To think a computer could fit on a desk, let alone a laptop, seemed almost inconceivable. Here is Rand's version of a home PC.
But as you can see, computers have come along way and today, to be without a computer is almost like being a fish out of water in the great ocean of collective knowledge. So when about a month ago when I told a co-worker to build his own computer, I got home to find that a metal bracket on the case had fallen on the motherboard and fried it.
Well, ok, stay calm I told myself. Even though I had not backed up my hard drives in six months, all was not lost. So off to
a local big box electronic store that has everything you could want in electronics I go. I had planned on rebuilding my system this holiday season, so hey, I get to start a little early. So let’s see, I’ll take one...

Intel Core quad 6600, 2.4 GHz@10666,

one ASUS P5K Deluxe motherboard,
A nice little N-Vidia Video card, 4GB of Ram, a Silent Knight all copper cooling fan 500 GB internal hard drive and a 500 GB external hard drive to go along with my two 75 GB raptors and Maxtor 300 GB. All told, over a terabyte of hard drive. Plenty of room to transfer the old date and room for the new. This isn’t so bad I told myself, just a nice excuse to upgrade the system as I have a Havidol moment. So off I go to the tech service center after having spent more then I needed to have it built into my existing Cooler Master. Of course I wanted it right away, so I paid the extra money for 72 hour service. I only made one stipulation, NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES, I NEED ALL OF MY DATA TRANSFERRED TO THE NEW 500 GB HD. NOTHING CAN BE LOST!
No problem says the tech. I again reiterated that there was no backup for the C drive which had ALL of my blogs, writings, pictures and videos. I even explained that my 5 websites had not been backed up in six months as my back-ups were full, so any changes that had been made were in that C drive. Not a problem says the tech, but that will cost you an additional $150. Ok, whatever it takes, just make sure the data is saved. “No problem “says the tech.
Well, after 72 hours, no computer. Five days, no computer. On the seventh day, I inquire again stating that I had paid quite abit of money for a service that has yet to be rendered. I came back every day only to find out that the tech who had been working on my computer was fired.
Eighth day, no computer, to which I said you guys are sounding like General Petraeus regarding the Iraq War everyday! “We’re making progress but no real exit strategy as of yet.”
Well, that’s when things went from bad to worse, you see not only were they to transfer the data, but they were also to raid the two Raptor hard drives in a mirror format. But the tech FORGOT to back up my main C drive and completely LOST ALL OF MY DATA, writing, research, pictures, videos and websites!
I couldn’t believe it, and neither could they.
“Ahh, well, you see, uhmmm, there was, well we really don’t know what happed given all the confusion with the original tech being fired and all.”
So almost a month after I took the computer in, and a full week of data recovery that recovered ZERO data, I now have a pretty rockstar computer that is missing 70GB of hard earned data. The funny thing is I took all of it rather well. I never got upset, disappointed yes, but hey, it is what it is, and nothing will bring back the data. Not that it was easy to let go of but like Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore, the fictional character in J.K. Rowlings “Harry Potter” I use my computer to hold my thoughts and epiphinies as he does in the following video.
So I decided to try and follow the medicine I wrote about in Laughter - Music For The Soul and realize that Perspective Can Shift Thinking.
I took it all in stride and increased my Holosync level and duration during this time. So needless to say I have not been able to blog, and even the blogs that I was working on are now gone. I had started quite literally hundreds of blogs that needed only pictures, videos and a few more lines of drafting. More recently I had been writing a series on Ken Wilbur, his work, perspectives and criticisms. I’ve wanted to explain his theories and Beck’s Spiral Dynamics to co-workers, but as many of you know, trying to explain Ken in a few brief moments is quite impossible. Outside of learning a new language and trying to understand a variety of disciplines that include psychology, sociology, philosophy, mysticism, postmodernism, science and systems theory, most just look at you with a blank stare. So I’ll start all over again with that idea in mind, though starting right back into what I just lost is a little difficult so I’m sure you can understand if this series doesn’t get posted tomorrow.
I just got the computer back today and have spent the better part of it loading drives, software, and all the necessary components that you take for granted once your up and running. In the end, I think what helped me most to get over the loss, is the understanding that the thoughts that my computer had contained, were just conceptualizations and mere form for what in reality is but merely shadows. In a way, I felt free, free to begin anew, to not hold on to what was written in the past, but to take hold of the NOW in the never ending quest to learn and experience what it is to be human.
In a sense, it is a new beginning to keep learning and moving forward just as Merlin, the original Dumbledore says in "Merlin, The Once and Future King",
“To learn something – that is the only thing that never fails. You may grow old and trembling in your anatomies, you may lie awake at night listening to the disorder of your veins,…you may see the world around you devastated by evil lunatics, or know your honor trampled in the sewers of baser minds. There is only one thing for it then – to learn. Learn why the world wags and what wags it. That is the only thing which the mind can never exhaust, never alienate, never be tortured by, never fear or distrust, and never dream of regretting. Learning is the thing for you.”
So how do we find meaning in situations or more importantly, how do we find meaning in life itself? Maybe Viktor Frankl ‘s “Meaning Triangle” helps paint the way,
1. Creativity – Giving something to the world through self-expression: using our talents in various ways; i.e., the work we do, the gifts we give to life.
2. Experiencing – Receiving from the world: through nature, culture, relationships, interactions with others and with our environment.
3. Change of attitude – Even if we can’t change a situation or circumstance, we can still choose our attitude toward a condition; this is often a self-transcending way of finding meaning, especially in unavoidable suffering.

Viktor Frankl
"“When we are no longer able to change a situation -
we are challenged to change ourselves.”
At least there is Zaadz which still contain some of the writings and efforts like the video I made for fun one night, CRASHED, it lives on only in the noosphere of the web. When my system crashed I was
"just tryin' to make some sense
out of how and why this happened."
And like in the song, desire will always breathe its breath into you and get you sailing in the right direction.
DEO

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